So it is yet again the beginning of a New Year; the time when so many people turn a new leaf. One of my main resolutions is to quit dabbling and buckle down--do something real. You know commit to something. I've always been a dabbler. It's quite surprising that I didn't chose liberal arts as my college major, but I didn't. I made a weak attempt to commit to the sciences...or maybe not so weak in comparison to some of my peers. I've come to terms with the fact that I never really master anything. I kind of pick here pick there but never really get exceptional at anything. I always thought that this was because I had so much passion and could not decide, but I'm beginning to think the truth is that I'm afraid to choose a path.
I've always had an affinity for writing, but fear that this would not yield a job pushed me to study the sciences even though I'm a little weak here. I thought my ambition would push me through with flying colors. I concentrated on one of my other passions--the environment. Surely I thought it would be fantastic. To be honest the majority of my classes were eh, and I truly feel as if I didn't learn much. Nothing stuck. I think that's a phenomenon that we are all facing as my generation comes up in the world. We're not really trained to do much. It is possible for nearly anyone to get an education these days...it's a sort of inflation of the college degree. I really feel that this phenomenon has spilled over into the real world as well. It is not just academia that is suffering. Maybe it has to do with the fact that our country is stagnating at the moment possibly caused by the economic crisis or whatever they're calling it these days.
It is rare that you find someone that is truly exceptional at what they do. What is the reason for this? Are people being hired that are simply not qualified? Is there a lack of checks and balances and some employees just get away with doing nothing or partaking in unprofessional practices? Maybe places are just understaffed. I don't know, but it seems mighty unfair that in a time when obtaining a good job is so difficult that people tend not to do what they're supposed to and are still able to keep there jobs or are able to keep a job to minimal work. The best example I can think of is the management company for my last apartment of which I will not bore you with details, but it didn't end pretty for me.
Anywho, I really need to do some research and figure out what position I would like to obtain in this world, and figure out how to get. Surprisingly this is much easier said than done. I feel like I wasn't prepared in college for what I might want to do in the real world. Nobody from academia ever really asked me what I want to be. Graduated in environmental science, I feel that there is actaully a lot of ambiguity as to what job titles exist. I just wish someone had maybe steered me in some direction. My plan was to try to get a job for DEP, but unfortunately government agencies have has a freeze for some time. So then what? 2 years after graduating and weeding out spammy job finding websites I'm finally getting a handle on what is out there. My question is why is this so difficult? I feel like maybe my generation is in limbo between the old fashioned world in which you go into a company, look a real person in the eye, hand them a resume, and shake their hand and this digital world in which everything works through emails going to a faceless person. Maybe the bugs haven't quite been worked out. Believe me, I have charm, and I think if I could chat with someone in person I would be able to weasel a job out of the conversation. And I would be good at that job too! I would do my best, and make it my own, my passion.
But now what to do? It seems like it should be a simple answer, but it's not one that many agree on or even have decent advice on. I feel as if I'm stuck in the middle, and the few skills that I do have are drying up. Well this is the day that I say no more! I'm going to commit and hone my skills. If I can't find a job right now, I'm going to put all my time and effort into figuring out what I need to focus on and learn up. I need to figure out what are my hobbies and what are my passions and what I can see myself doing every day. I really think I just need to open my own business, but only time will tell. Now if you'll excuse me my boyfriend is snoring in the other room, and I need to go put a sock in it!
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